keywords : whimper,exaggerate

I'm actually bored with the opening sentence "it's been a while since my last posting, blah.. blah.." but that's the fact anyway. There're always such space between my posting, according to my on-off mood #apology :)

Today i'm quite in the mood to write some weird thought of mine, useless one by the way, so don't bother..
These few days i'm on the low-mo-almost-depressed mind because of my academic stuff. Such a shame. Some people may say my academic life is just okay, or good, but it's like the worst for me. I get adequate reason for my whimper. I have five close-college-friends, two of them will graduate this week, three other on the way working over their 'skripsi', all of them got cumlaude GPA, and..... here i am. Still have one subject to take, not yet get the call for 'kknp', no idea for 'skripsi', and have an average GPA. Sigh.

That thing makes me feel like i've failed.
Like i have no future anymore. I'm the only one who suffer in this world. Fi, the righteous martyr. Heheh.
I was on that exaggerated worries for a week. I didn't want to socialize, just did anything pointless in my bedroom. Went out just to the bathroom or kitchen. Thank God my weight is stable. If it doesn't, maybe now i'm at a hundred kilos. Well, exaggerated.

Thank God again for creating my bond-by-fate and tied-by-blood sisters. Both of them inspire me, give me motivation, and courage as well, to dream again. To be 'me' as always. The dreamy, optimistic one. To take a step eagerly, riding my motorcycle without staring at the rearview mirror too much. We don't know yet what's to come, we can just do the best and pray. Sounds cliche, but i believe in that #faithful

There is no average me. Life experiences of every person cannot be compared. We are unique, great on our own way. No whimpers, bud. Let's reach our dream and enjoy the life! *sounds like a session in MarioTeguh GoldenWays.whatever.keh keh keh :D

and hey, i wish one day i will be in this place. My dear friends always said that i'm too wishful, but, who knows? Merciful God, hug my wishes. Amin..

 (i like the 'daily' place one other than the tourism object.it's more mesmerizing in my weird point of view:)