i have to be more thankful

It feels like somebody punch my face.

I was very ashamed when i read my friend's blog and an article on an online post.
I realized that i'm such a liar.
I always say "thank God", "thank God", at least five times a day, but i never did it with all of my heart. I just said that. Never thought that was so true. That God has gave me and still giving me amazing life. I have a great family, great friends, great opportunities in many things i loved..
I did still grumbling. Wonder why i'm not pretty, why other people have better life than me. What a stupid!

After read my friend's blogs, i knew that i must live my life fully. Enjoy every moment, sugary or sad. It's a blessing. It never happen twice, it never happen to another. It's unique, it's precious, it's mine...
When i read the article, i got the answer for my dumb and dumberer long lasting question. "Why ain't i pretty?". It's because i myself thought i'm not pretty. The article kicked me. It written; "..you have to be more thankful!"
My music player did help on these conspiracy, too. It played "tied together with a smile" by taylor swift...

"Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, 'cause I know you..."

Maybe this is the way my lovely God reminds me of my stupidity.
Now, with all mine, i'm saying; "Alhamdulillah.Thank you very much,God"
I do have a gorgeus life.
And everytime i feel sad, unfortunate, i just..

i just have to be more thankful :)

p.s thanks to anyin and ninneta.inspiring fighters.fight!

kasus aneh lagi _ _"

Antasari dituntut hukuman mati jadi berita pertama yang saya lihat sore ini di di kotak ajaib saya ; televisi. Saya tidak tidak berani beropini bapak berkumis tebal ini memang melakukan apa yang didakwakan padanya atau hanya apes sehingga difitnah sedemikian rupa karena saya tidak memiliki kapabilitas. Tetapi manapun yang benar, kasusnya sejak awal mula telah membuat saya miris. Saya jadi sering tersenyum-senyum sedih sendiri, lebih sering bingung memikirkan problem ini dibanding problem dengan lawan jenis yang selalu terasa jadi inti hidup remaja hampir dewasa seusia saya. Kalau Antasari bersalah, sungguh mengerikan sekali kenyataan itu. Seorang pucuk pimpinan lembaga yang (seharusnya) kredibel di negara ini melakukan kejahatan-kejahatan picisan macam yang diberitakan. Tapi bila ia tidak bersalah dan sekedar korban konspirasi tingkat tinggi (yang skenarionya murahan sekali), saya lebih ngeri lagi. Betapa ribuan ahli di lembaga yang berwenang menangani kasus ini sangat buta, atau ternyata sangat bodoh (karena masuk lembaga itu juga cuma berdasar sogokan, bukan skill, mungkin), atau sangat kemaruk harta (yang demi suap beberapa M atau T, mungkin) membiarkan kasus konyol ini sedemikian berlarut-larut dan memporak-porandakan lembaga sekelas KPK. Juga menyengsarakan orang-orang yang tidak bersalah. Apapun, bagaimanapun, salah atau benar, tuntutan hukuman mati ini tetap membuat saya sedih dan terbebani. Satu lagi kasus besar, memiriskan, dan tampak tanpa akhir untuk Indonesia.

5 allowed lies in Bali

bon,,
Few days ago i had a trip to Bali, the goddess island, with my mom and her friends for three days..
We saw many places that's maybe always be the common tourist destinations, but it still extraordinary for me. It's because the last time i went to that statue island was when i'm one year old, still a cute baby,not yet a beautiful girl like today ;p

We went to 'tanah lot';beautiful shore on south Bali, 'tanjung Benoa';awsome cape with little island near to for turtle breeding, 'pantai Kuta';famous beach which full of foreigner hangin' out, 'Bedugul';gorgeous Balinese temple in the edge of 'Batur' huge lake, 'Garuda Wisnu Kencana';lime hill shaped with a biggest statue in the world to be-the god of Hindu riding on a Garuda bird covered by gold-inside, and many shopping stops. We also saw the Barong dance which is full of magic.

Our tour guide on that occasion was a warm and humorous man, I Putu Sarjana, called Bli Gde (Bli means big brother and Gde means the oldest child in the family). He, as a guide expected to be, told us many stories about Bali all along the way. He spoke and spoke but surprisingly, it never made me boring. He told us about the places, the cultures, to the mythes of his Island. It gave me new knowledge. Vacation with adding knowledge was always be my favourite.

The interesting one that he told me (us i mean) was about five allowed lies for Balinese.

I never thought about lie that is allowed before, but Bli Gde told me there were five good lies allowed in Bali. I can't remember the sequence so just pretend there are no sequences. xixi. Well, first is lie by the doctor to the patient. It's needed on the such situation where the patient is in very bad condition and logically, near the death. The doctor allowed to lie to the patient or the patient's family to reduce their worries. Second, the adult's lie to the kid. Sometimes, kiddo do some silly things that can danger their life like run around a well. Their parent maybe tell them a lie about a ghost that live inside the well to keep them safe. Third, the lie of the seller to the buyer. For example, "this is special for you miss, 15% discount for your beauty". Fourth, ....

emm i forget :p let me think first. Well, for a while, let this to be continued..